The condensed version of the story: my obsession with New Order coincided with a frustrating, depressing and confusing period several years ago. So practically every song banged against a sore spot on my memory.

Yes, you know it's coming, so here it is:

What shall I say? I feel you will betray me
How many ways can you prolong this tragedy?
Who told you that I would be back?
You came here to seize my freedom
I will send you falling slowly to the earth I see below me

You never knew... with open arms I came to you
Judging me so safe to be with
Mistakes you made that you can't live with
What you get is what you need
When you watch the blood but you don't bleed

You make me feel like the mass delusion
Of a man whose life became illusion
-- New Order, Angel Dust

Only one New Order cd left: 7 remixes of Spooky. I think I'll set it aside for now. I'm sleepy right now.